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| Ren needs love |
[Sep. 19th, 2008|04:28 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | windsor | ] |
| [ | How Do You Feel? |
| |  broken | ] |
To whoever may read this (not many, as I post maybe once a year. and that is when I am being LJ-generous), I need love. Broke up with bf of a year and like 8 months. He keeps sending me hateful messages and stuff at whatever outlet he can even though I have blocked him from nearly everything now. My friends here have been great and supportive, even the ones that I met through Pete, but I just need all the love I can get right now. It is hard to be called a bitch at every turn and not get a bit beaten up about it.
So this is a blatent call for love. Even if you don't leave a comment, if you feel like sending me an e-mail or calling me I would love you back for ever and ever. I just feel like such shit right now and can't believe how much this abuse hurts. I am so homesick for Vancouver it is unbelievable.
To add to this, my University is on strike. well the faculty is and I totally support them. Rallies and picketing for the win (well thats the point right?). but it is of course another stress in an already crappy time. |
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| yaaay |
[Mar. 22nd, 2007|12:13 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | lounging room | ] |
| [ | How Do You Feel? |
| |  touched | ] |
| [ | What's That Sound? |
| | eric playing resident evil | ] |
Happy birthday to me. :D
I am 20!
no longer a teen.
My roomies surprised me by getting me a couple chocolate oranges and sticking candles in the boxes and coming in singing happy birthday. They say there was going to be pumpkin pie because i mentioned the other day that I was craving it. (CAUSE PUMPKIN PIE IS SO GOOD) But they messed it up cause it was ment to be in the freezer not fridge so it melted:D hehe. I saw the evidence it is the truth!
Also got a package from julia and rob with a gift baskect full of yummy things today. and i was not esxpecting that at all so it delighted me.
and I am going to get a package fromt aylor either tomorrow or friday.
and tomorrow (by tomorrow i meant today i guess. thursday) I am having a partay here and it is going to be faboo and both the guys I am seeing are gonna be there and they know about each other so i don't need to worry about hiding it or anything.
:D loves!
yay me:D today is gonna be awesome! |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 17th, 2007|07:03 am] |
| [ | How Do You Feel? |
| |  insomniac-y | ] |
I have to stop going to be when it starts to become light out >_O twitch twitch
5 hours to full runthrough of 1st half of bright room. groan!
HAVE A GREAT AND !!!!!SAFE!!!!! ST PADDY'S DAY EVERYONE! |
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| Lovely selfish self involdedness |
[Mar. 10th, 2007|01:38 am] |
| [ | How Do You Feel? |
| |  delighted | ] |
Ever get that feeling of seething dread, shame, and almost anger when you first find out that your ex-boyfriend is in a new full-fledged-relationship before you over something like facebook or lj etc?
Even when you know that you are over them and don't even WANT a relationship and are very happy in your sex/cuddling/PDA-when-you-are-together-but-but-not-tied-down-officially-so-no-stress-when-you-arn't-hanging-out, makes-pizza-for-you-from-scratch-for-valentines-day, fun-to-hang-out-with-as-a-friend-as-well-even-though-there-is-no-potential-for-longterm-relationship perfect-for-right-now match?
And then feel happiness, delight, and ALMOST shameful glee when you see a picture and realise that you are WAY more attractive than the new gf/bf?
hehehe I have.
Isn't it great :D
The upsettedness is irrational. then you feel bad and start secondguessing how you feel about the person and what you really want because of the bad feelings. so you feel worse. and you can feel yourself leaning over the edge of a spiral slide of doomy bad feelings of self hating.
Then suddenly you see the picture and the shock trips you over the edge and you realise that the slide is only a painting on the floor, not even a very good one, and laugh at yourself because of your sillyness.
then feel better than before even because you were the hotter one and you don;t have to be tied down in a relationship to have the benifits at the moment and you are actually very happy with the way you are right now. So you didn't lose some ethereal race to get in a relationship or somehing, there was no competition. both parties are winners!
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But I am more of a winner because I am the hot one :D
score!
HAPPY :D
note: this was not an exercise in shallow-ness, though i see how it can be seen that way. or I wouldn't have made this end-note. This is more of a delightful realisation of self-confidence and indulgence in the lovely petty truth of relationship humanity. |
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| Yoinked from Karl |
[Mar. 3rd, 2007|04:57 am] |
| [ | How Do You Feel? |
| |  sleepy | ] |
1 word survey: Can. Only. Type. One. Word. Not as easy as you might think.
1. Where is your cell phone?
Below
2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend?
Simplicity
3. Your hair?
Wild
4. Your mother?
Better
5. Your father?
Hug
6. Your favorite thing?
Art
7. Your dream last night?
Wizardly
8. Your favorite drink?
Milk
9. Your dream car?
Z3
10. The room you're in?
Mine
11. Favorite Food?
Sushi
12. Your fears?
Scary
13. What do you want to be in 10 years?
Happy
14. Who did you hang out with last night?
Frank
15. Muffins?
Please
16. Favorite Place?
Home
17. One of your wish list items?
Talent
18. Where you grew up?
Vancouver
19. The last thing you did?
Read
20. What are you wearing?
Glasses
21. Your TV?
Dark
22. Your pet?
Fish(es)
23. Your computer?
Warm
24. Your life?
Happening
25. Your mood?
Content
26. Missing?
Summer
27. What are you thinking about right now?
Sleep
28. Your car?
Golf
29. Your work?
Leech
30. Your summers?
Slow
31. Your relationship status?
Uncommited
32. Your favorite color?
Blood
33. When is the last time you laughed?
Midnight
34. Last time you cried?
Forgotten
35. School?
Teusday |
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| duuuurrrrr |
[Feb. 26th, 2007|05:32 am] |
wow. how retarded am I that I never realised the cursor has a shadow. honestly!
yup.
thats all folks! |
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| Parts are true. like the balance of logic and creativity and self critical. rest is kinda bunk |
[Feb. 16th, 2007|02:21 pm] |
Your Brain Usage Profile:
Auditory : 25%
Visual : 75%
Left : 50%
Right : 50%
Ren, you exhibit an even balance between left- and right- hemisphere dominance and a slight preference for visual over auditory processing. With a score this balanced, it is likely that you would have slightly different results each time you complete this self-assessment quiz.
You are a well-rounded person, distinctly individualistic and artistic, an active and multidimensional learner. At the same time, you are logical and disciplined, can operate well within an organization, and are sensitive towards others without losing objectivity. You are organized and goal-directed. Although a "thinking" individual, you "take in" entire situations readily and can act on intuition.
You sometimes tend to vacillate in your learning styles. Learning might take you longer than someone of equal intellect, but you will tend to be more thorough and retain the material longer than those other individuals. You will alternate between logic and impulse. This vacillation will not normally be intentional or deliberate, so you may experience anxiety in situations where you are not certain which aspect of yourself will be called on.
With a slight preference for visual processing, you tend to be encompassing in your perceptions, process along multidimensional paths and be active in your attacking of situations or learning.
Overall, you should feel content with your life and yourself. You are, perhaps, a little too critical of yourself -- and of others -- while maintaining an "openness" which tempers that tendency. Indecisiveness is a problem and your creativity may not be in keeping with your potential. Being a pragmatist, you downplay this aspect of yourself and focus on the more immediate, obvious and the more functional |
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| Today I got a poem! |
[Feb. 6th, 2007|10:41 pm] |
| [ | How Do You Feel? |
| | jubilant | ] |
Taytay wrote me a poem cause I am silly and over homeworked and tired. :D I lurvs mah Taytay. Can't wait to chill with him again come summer. He's the buddy that went to science world with me and helped me be strong against all the zombies! i mean, plastinafated corpses. (yes I know thats the wrong word)
zee poem:
There is a gal that I know and her name is Ren
We chat from time to time and now and again
Shes going to school and I miss her a bunch
Last night for her a was homework crunch
She didn’t get sleep, and might have sunk on a test
But what I do know…. is I think shes the best
Shes smart and sexy and has a hell of a wit
And when you pass the hooka,she’ll take a hit
I know we wont see one another for a little while
But when I think of her, she does make me smile
So I say to you Ren from the bottom of my heart
Get some sleep gal.You sexy hooka tart =) |
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| MOMENTOUS OCCASION! |
[Dec. 15th, 2006|08:09 am] |
EVERYBODY REJOICE!
I am almost done my last paper of first semester. it is another 40+ page Scene Journal. but I only have to finish scoring the script. am taking this time out to share the joy around. I CAN START SLEEPING AGAIN! OMGzzors!
not even joking. I have had a paper due ever weekday for the past 2 weeks excluding this past wednesday and the first monday
Tues 5: 5pg Journal for Voice
Wed 6: (it was 3 pages whe i finished. notes and quotes and sources and such)Paper for Canadian theatre history- had to finsih researhc and have evidence so that Erica would let me extand my deadline till monday. ALSO did final presentation of our second scene for scene study.
Thurs 7: 8 pg Voice Progress paper
Fri 8: 44pg Scene Journal -Graceland
Sat 9: Psych Exam
Mon 11: Canadian Theatre History 4 pages and a works cited page with at least 5 sources about the effectiveness of feminist theatre tactics and how they relate to The Occupation of Heather Rose
Teus 12: 6 page Improv progress/process paper (lionel is the hardest marker when it comes to papers too) AND IMPROV EXAM
Wed 13: NO PAPER! I SLEPT! WOO!
Thurs 14: 10 pg process paper for Oedipus Rex performance that we presented at 8:30 in the morning. paper due at start of exam
Fri 15: 40+pg Scene Journal - Ludlow Fair due at exam presentation of the scene at 12:00. Jaime and I are up first.
I have 2 more exams after scene study, but thankfully, BLESSEDLY NO MORE PAPERS!
as it is, it will come out to about 120(+) sheets of paper sacrificed to my academic persuits. dear god. eeeeeuuuuuugh
by they way. all the papers due and crap, that is on top of at least 3 hours of rehearsal a day. usually more like 4-5 hours though. at least three different rehearsals a day.
I just wanna lay down and sleep for a week. so looking forward to coming home. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 4th, 2006|03:01 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Toldo center | ] |
| [ | How Do You Feel? |
| |  pensive | ] |
| [ | What's That Sound? |
| | Home for a rest - spirit of the west | ] |
Hey, Just posting cause I am here at school because i had an appointment earlier but don't have class until 2:30. so i still have 40 mins to kill. so my life has been a 'nice' lil roller coster recently. sif. sorta climbing back up and all that but i have 4 paper thingies due this week so the allnighters are so coming. i still have classes this week too! only today teusday and wednesday though. dad comes on friday! can't wait! am really looking forward to it. i miss my family so much.
I return on the 19th so if you wanna hang out gimme a call after that. cell is 778 288-0343. if you wanna call me in windsor or leave me text messages the number is 519 566-2596.
I am so ready for school to be over for christmas. don't get me wrong. I Love what I do here. but it is just SO MUCH! honestly. I need a freekin break. there is so muhc pressure to do well and be open and vulnerable and creative and impulsive and such that class sometimes feels like standing infront of a croud and stripping. peeling away the flimsy fabric that covers you, and then peeling away your skin like an onion, and then the fat, the muscles, and the bone until all that is left is the heart. then that goes to and the only thing left is you, the idea of you, who I think I am and who others think I am and this ethereal entity is being scrutinized and critiqued.
is hard. Why do I do it? sometimes I don't know. but then there are the moments of utter clarity where it all just makes sense because I love it.
I swear, in the end, all actors are into pain in some manner or other. self inflicted at that.
(note: please don't be worrying about me from this post thing. am actually in a really good place right now, or getting there. this is positive musing and annalysis) |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 22nd, 2006|12:00 am] |
 Dear Santa...
Dear Santa,
This year I've been busy!
Last Thursday I ruled Asscrackistan as a kind and benevolent dictator (700 points). In January I saved a busload of nuns in Angola (326 points). In September I helped ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) cruelangel see the light (8 points). In March I gave lotus_enigma a kidney (1000 points). In November I turned andraste_icons in for eating carbs (3 points).
Overall, I've been nice (2037 points). For Christmas I deserve a Wii!
Sincerely,
super_renny |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 6th, 2006|03:03 am] |
This update is for john.
You need a life darlin. Almost as much as I do.
end transmission. full stop. |
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